Thursday, June 14, 2012

Briella’s Birth Story


So I had been having contractions on and off for about a week, but they had not been painful just uncomfortable. I woke up on Tuesday the 5th with pretty painful cramps and thought to myself here we go again, not thinking I would actually be delivering a baby later that day. I had a dr. appointment scheduled for 9 am and when she checked me I was 2cm dialated and 80% effaced, and she said she knew I wouldn’t make it to my next week appointment. She asked if I wanted my membranes stripped and I said yes let’s go ahead and do that. I really wanted Briella to come before Aunt Kymie had to leave! So she did, and we left the appointment and headed home. By the time we got home from the appointment I had contractions coming every 3 to 4 minutes for about 30-45 seconds apart. I bounced on my ball, took a shower, and paced through them. I had to go to the bathroom a lot, like every 3 minutes and one time I went it felt like a gush came out, but I wasn’t sure, but we thought well maybe that was my water breaking. So, we called the nurse at the hospital and she said it sounded like maybe the real thing and to go ahead and come in. When we got there I was 3 cm dialated and we found out my water had broken so around 1:30pm they admitted me. Once admitted I was having contractions every minute. I was not getting any relief from them at all, and they were becoming stronger. So, they started me on fentinol just to take the edge off of them and it slowed them down just enough so I could breathe. I was very naseous and ended puking all over poor scotts hand, so they told me no more water just ice from then on out. So around 3 or so I was 4-5 cm and at 4 I was 5, so to help the pain I got in the shower for about an hour and that felt SO good! I progressed to 7cm after the shower and around 7 I was 9cm and almost ready to push. They kept giving me a few little doses of fentinol but that was the only drugs I had. I was finally ready to start pushing at 8:30 ish, and I was so glad! It felt so good to push! With every push I thought maybe that was it, but it took two hours for her to finally make her appearance. At 9:42pm she finally made her way into the world. I did end up getting second degree tear, and that’s making recovery oh so fun, but It was worth it for my princess. Looking back I can’t believe how fast it went. I really think all the walking and stuff I did before helped her be ready to come fast into the world. I couldn’t have done it without Scott though. He was the most amazing coach and husband through the whole thing. I focused only on him and everytime he said deep breathe or anything at all I listened to only him. I could not have had a better coach by my side.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Briella Anne

Yesterday I was 19 weeks and 2 days and heard the best words ever since "I do". "I must have guessed girl last time, and I was right, your baby is def. a girl"-Said the ultrasound tech. I am so so overjoyed and happy and blessed!! I cannot believe God has blessed us with a beautiful baby girl! :) Her name will be Briella Anne, which comes from gabriella which means God is my strength. I love it and I love her already!! She was pretty much folded in half and moving all around at the ultrasound. It was so fun to see her reaching for her toes and waving her little fingers and putting her hand up by her face :). It was so so cool. I cannot wait to meet our baby girl sometime in early June.

Dear Sweet Baby Girl,

Your daddy and I have prayed for you since before you were conceived, and I have prayed for you since before I met daddy. I am so overjoyed it almost brings me to tears to know that soon you will be in my arms, but for now I am enjoying keeping you to myself in my stomach. Your daddy got to feel you kick your little footsie yesterday, and I am constantly feeling you move and kick. I imagine everyday what you will look like when you come out. Will you have lots of hair or not much? Will you have blue eyes or brown or even hazel like me? I don't know, but I know that I love you so so much already! Your daddy loves you too, we were so thrilled to hear that you were a girl. Your daddy and I pray everynight that you will be healthy and that you will wait to come on time. We want the very best for you, and I hope we can be the very best Godly parents for you. You are a sweet perfect angel in my eyes already and I am having so much fun buying things for you already. Stay strong in there sweet baby. I love you so so much!

Love,
Your mommy

Saturday, December 31, 2011

Almost 17 weeks and 2012

I cant believe it's going to be 2012 in two days!! I have had such a blessed year and I cannot wait for 2012 to get better! I got to marry the love of my life this year on May 21. A day I will never forget, and on Sep 29th I got to become a mom. I won't get to meet baby smo until June sometime, but knowing I'm a mom is such a great feeling.

This year has taught me a lot too. God has shown me how to be more patient and loving, and he has shown me how sometimes I have to stand up for myself, and be who I am. He has taught me that it's okay to not to try to be perfect at everything, and that old friendships can become newer, and new friendships can become better. It's been such a blessing in so many ways.

I am going to be posting a blessing/thanks for everyday of 2012, and I am so excited about everything I will get to post. I am going to try to write them all down, and then modge podge them somewhere to show my baby someday in the year that he/she was born.

I have also learned or have started to learn to be a wife this year. It's not an easy thing yoru first year of marriage. Everyone says the 1st year is hard, but no really it is. I am learning each day how to be a better Godly wife, and I hope I can only strive to be better. God has given me the most amazing perfect husband ever, and I am just so stinking lucky and blessed. I need to show it more though. I love that man so much. Butterflies are the best feeling ever.

I am off for the last post of 2011. I will see ya next year :)

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Baby Smo 7weeks 2days old

World, meet Baby Smo :). He/She is 7Weeks 2days in this picture and doing just great. She(i've been calling her a she) has a heartbeat of 146 and is measuring at half an inch long. Such a beautiful thing seeing my baby!!!





Me and S have had the hardest of times trying to figure out names, It is so hard coming up with a name we both agree on! I know it will come naturally though when we do find one we love. Right now we are loving the little things that come with pregnancy, and knowing our baby is healthy!

Love my little being!

Friday, September 30, 2011

Scottinelett

Well, this blog is going to take a new turn for the next 9 months, that's because there's a baby to be!!! S and I are having our first child and we just found out this week. What an absolutely amazing feeling to know we are having a baby! When I took those 4 test followed by a digital one, it was crazy what you feel when you see that line, and know the thing you have wanted your whole life you get! S and I are truely blessed and I can't believe we are going to be parents :) I will try and post every few weeks or so and keep caught up on the baby progress. We are looking foward to June and meeting our sweet lil pea

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Feeling Lonely

Don't get me wrong, I am SO blessed and grateful for everything God has given me over this past year. I have a new house, a husband, and so many very small blessing that add up into a big blessing every day. However, I am feeling so very lonely lately. Scott works a lot, and I am so blessed to have the time I do with him. When I am alone at home though, I find mysefl yearnign and longing for girl time. I have very few friends in this world that I can truly call friend. I have lots of girls who say friend but don't really mean it. It hurts to know when you need someone you have noone. Exspecially when we need our girl support. :( God is so faithful and I know I am just following Him and that's all I can do, but it's such a lonely road and path to be on.

Friday, August 26, 2011

Hiloshats and update on life

Well I finally started my etsy site. So far I've only had one sale, but it's still early and I'm hopeful! :) It's been a lot of fun making hats and setting up the site for everyone to see. If you'd like check it out at www.etsy.com/shop/HilosHats .

In other news S and I are getting ready to move here in just a few days. We have had the most amazing blessing of being able to move into some friends of Scott's parents house for a year, and save on money but also have a lot more room. It is also a LOT closer for Scott's work, and will cut his commute down quite a bit. It's also three houses or so away from Scott's Aunt Chana, so we will be able to be near family. I'm so excited!! It's doubel the size of our current place with an extra bedroom and bathroom, so we will be able to have company over and entertain. It's all around a great great thing. :)

We are also heading to Hawaii here in about a month and a half. We are going with his brother another Aunt and her daughter, his mom, and her friend from Cali. I am SO excited to be able to go to Hawaii for the first time, and I know it will be an absolute blast!!

I have been struggling a little with feeling very much like a failure and having rather low self-esteem, this isn't new, I have been feeling like it for a while, I just have had a lot of drama issues with several friends and I have felt like it's been my fault when I know it's not. It's sad when there are those people out there who you thought you could trust and count on, but when it comes to it there are very very few that you actually can count on.

I am however looking foward to a year full fo change, some good, and some maybe hard change, but I know God is carrying me through it all, and I am so thankful for His blessings. God has been so good to me and to Scott and has really worked and intervened in our personal lives, as well as our marriage.

Until Next Time,
Mrs. S

Monday, June 20, 2011

Mrs.S

MARRIED!!!!

I've now been married for ONE MONTH!(tomorrow) :) I'm in love with my dear H more than ever before, and I wake up everyday saying that! I LOVE being married it is God's greatest gift, and I/we are so so BLESSED!!!! Here are a few pictures to share of our blessed day :). God was at the center of it all.


Me and my dear sister


us girls throwing attitude :)


one of my MANY favorites

Thursday, April 21, 2011

ONE MONTH!!!

THIRTY DAYS!!
I will be married in thirty days!!! :) That is juuust too crazy for me! ;) im so excited to marry S and be Mrs. CES and no longer CER :) how exciting..
umm but my to do list is RIDICULOUSLY LONG!!!!!
sooo much to dooooooo
where to begin where to go from here.. gah! so much to do!!
im looking forward to being done and on vaca with my hubby!!

Friday, March 18, 2011

HATS HATS HATS!!


Toddler purple bow hat, I want a little girl to dress!


Newsboys hat



Cute froggie hat.. i wish I had a toddler to put this on!

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Wedding Dress Worries

It's been since Nov. since I ordered my dress. Also, since I've seen my dress. I was told three weeks ago it would be in by the end of that week. I was told two weeks ago by the owner that it would be in last thursday or friday. It's Tuesday. NO DRESS!!!!! :S. I was told it shipped on Feb. 18th... where is MY DRESS!!!! :( I'm starting to freak out only mildly,yes I have 2 months still, but I'm sure I'm going to need alterations, and I need a bustle... :S! Please dress PLEASE COME SOON!!!!!
In other news we have our invites done! Now, to find envelopes that don't look lame, and to address and send them off with stamps! :) hopefully that will be done by next week! AHHH! 2 months from Monday I'll be Mrs.Smothermon!

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Engagement photos

Here's a few of our engagement photos. Done by everlast photography.
Emma is amazing to work with and she did an awesome job. Check out her facebook page!
http://www.facebook.com/pages/EverlastPhotography

Gotta love Railroad tracks :)

Our nickname


awwwww...shucks



It's right around the corner now!!!!
<3,
Hilo





Monday, March 7, 2011

New Hats Coming Soon

So I am going to slowly transition this blog to my hats blog, and post wedding blog once the wedding is over. :) I am working on some new hat designs and I can't wait to share with everyone!!:) I'm so excited about making more and more hats, and I'm having so much fun doing it!

Friday, March 4, 2011

6 months and a billion days ago....

Hi whoever might read this still.. i know its been FOREVER since I've written. Try blogging,planning a wedding,working,and figuring out how to live life all at the same time. It's hard, it's almost impossible!

Well since I've been engaged wedding planning has been in full swing and now we are 3 short months away from being married! EEEEEEKKKKKK!!!!! :D :D :D

I still can't believe I'm going from Roberts to Smothermon so soon!!
cant wait.. cannnottt wait!
This week i've been in a funk though, and I'm not sure if freezing cold Aalska has gotten to me, or if wedding planning is becoming stressfull to the max, or what.. but I'm so blessed to have an amazing man in my life my amazing fiance' takes such good care of me!! He makes me laugh so much.. today we played a game over text.. i love your hairy toes, i love your stinky feet...these moments remind me of why im marrying such an amazing man.

78 days and counting folks!!

Friday, October 15, 2010

ENGAGED :)



YUP it's true... Oct. 14,2010 S proposed to me :). I couldn't be happier!!! I'm so excited to become my best friend's wife and to live happily ever after with him. He is truly an amazing man of God, and I couldn't ask for a better man for me. I'm so excited I barely got sleep last night. So I'm off to bed.. but I had to put it on my blog, IM SO EXCITED!!!

We're hoping for May 21,2011... So I have like 218 days to go! :S

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Hats :)




So i've been making hats.. and i LOVE it :) :)... its soo mcuh fun to do!! S's neighbor F taught me how, and she is such a great teacher.. here's 2 of the ones I've so far made, im currently working on one for S now :). Hope he likes it!!!




Thursday, September 30, 2010

24's a good number :)

My list of what I would like to accomplish as a 24 year old..



*Shrink an inch

*Lose 20 pounds

*Move out of my dad's place

*Pay off ALL debt

*Get E'ed

*Get my MRS degree ;)

*GO TO FREAKING HAWAII ( this one I WILL accomplish)

*Plan the best fajita!

*Have my foot size shrink a few inches

*Do something drastic to my hair

*Go to Fairbanks

*Eat at Double Musky

*Go to Indiana(happening in ONE month )

*Have the best 1st Christmas with Scott :)

*See my best friend miss seven sleeps herself again :)

*Go on a steakmoon(NDA i figure you make steak fajitas so a steakmoon is what happens with fajitas right?!?)

*Cook more and more

*make lots of hats!!!

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Almost 24

I will be 24 in 5 days, and I feel as if this past year of being 23 has dramatically changed my life. So, i think I'll reminse about my 23rd year of life.
Last year at this time I was confused, and heartbroken and totally not even close to walking with God. I was depressed, and poor and frustrated with life. I had two roomates, one that I got along with really well and that was the extent of my fun. However, I wasn't happy there's definetley a big difference between having fun and being happy. I made a lot of sinful mistakes last fall, and I'm just so blessed and thankful that God is a forgiving God. When I look back now, I realize that if I hadn't gone through that I may have not been so anxious to reconsile to God and get my life back. I know that what I went through last fall wasn't what God wanted for me, and looking back not what I wanted for myself, but it's what caused me to break completley to bring me back to the throne of God and His grace. :) SO cool He is! I ended up hurting my roomates and breaking a lease that they weren't happy about, and losing a good friendship, but Jan. I got re baptised, turned my life over to God, and not even two weeks later met the love of my life S! It's amazing what God can do when you turn your heart back to Him. These past 7 months have been the craziest, and best months of my life. We have our frustrations, like when the ice cream in the freezer melts and I think it should be thrown away, but S wants to try and re freeze it :). Or when noodles fall in the sink and I refuse to eat them :) haha. But seriously, I have grown SO SO much and S and I have grown so much together, and we couldn't have done it without the grace of our Lord. As I look back to last year, and how much I was hurting, but struggled to hold on to that hurt because it was comfortable, I see now that when I let go and let God, all things are possible. I challenge whoever reads these- if your comfortable in a situation, but you know it's not right, then be bold step out of that comfort zone and make a choice to let go and let God. I promise you'll end up better in the end. He can do great things.
In the next few days I'll write my list of what I want to do in my 24th year. :) it's good so stay tuned!

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

Apartment :)

S found an apartment YAY!!! it's in Peters Creek and right next door to some very good friends of ours. :) it's a one bed. one bath and def. older apartment, but he likes it and so do I. We started moving in stuff last night, and let me tell you S has a lot of crap, but we got a good load over to the apartment and he will move all the big stuff today. I'm excited that we will have our own place to hangout at, and he has his own place to call home. Maybe someday it will get to be my home too! ;) Also, S started actualy work in the NICU this past weekend, and let me tell you 12 hours without him is NO FUN! Sat and Sun he had to work, but I managed to stay busy shopping,lunch with my mom, and scrapbooking. I got three pages done in my scrapbook and I found a lot of ideas too for new pages, so I'm excited to continue working on it on the days he works. My birthday is in three weeks and yay I'm excited! I don't have any big plans as of yet, but I know S will spoil me, and we will def. be going out to dinner, and his dad is going to bbq me whatever I want for dinner too! :) S likes his job so far and I'm very thankful that he likes what he does, and he gets paid so well to do it. I'm wishing I could start my dream job, but I think God has different plans for now ;). My dream job has some things that come before it, but it will happen eventually, I have NO doubt about that. :) Im excited for a weekend off with S in his new place, and then next week for my very best friend to visit me! YAY!!!!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

I'm still alive :)

Sorry it's been so long since I've written, though I'm pretty sure I'm just saying sorry to myself because I don't think anyone but me reads these. S got the NICU nursing job and I couldn't be a prouder girlfriend. So, because he got a job we have been looking for apartments for him. It is such a difficult thing looking at apartments in AK. If only he didn't have a budget, and we had more options. There just isn't a lot in his price range. I know that God will provide though, it will just take patience, somethign I'm not great at :). If only there were endless options like I'm sure there are in LA, or NY, or Boston or Florida or something. I do love craigslist and the apartments there. Like this one in Boston. Stainless steel, gorgeous hardwood floors. Love it! Check out this bathroom in NY city. :) wow... if only I had a million dollars and didn't know what to do with it... so fun looking at expensive places and pretending your rich.
I promise I won't neglect you so much blogspot anymore. Afterall it is September my favorite month, things are BOUND to happen to write about :).