Thursday, August 12, 2010

Ponderings

I like that word pondering. It makes me feel like I'm really thinking hard, and using my big ole head for something. :) I have been pondering a few things lately and would love imput, or not whatever.
~Why is it that I feel so useless lately? Not like useles at my job, not useless as a person I can still do things, but lately I've felt useless as a Christian, like I should be doing more. Going to a bible study, teaching children's church, something to feel more use full :). I go to church(which I love my new church by the way) and I usually get something out of the sermon's and or worship and S and I read every night a chapter(we are reading through the Bible in a year), but I'm just feeling like there's got to be more I can be doing. Exspecially after this past weekened helping out at kids camp, I have forgotten how much i LOVE working with kids, and miss it. TERRIBLY! I miss seeing the kids faces glow, and light up, and grow and search for answers. I miss being a part of a study where I get to discuss and grow myself. S and I are reading through the 5 love languages, and that's been really good and I have learned a lot through that. Hopefully,maybe I can continue that growth somehow, someway.

~Also, why do I feel so happy lately? Yeah I might be feelign useless, but I'm loving everything in my life. Okay, so the question isn't why am I so happy I know the answer to that one, it's obvious that God has extremely blessed me this year and exspecially the past 6 months ;) <3, but why did God decide to bless me? Why me? Last year I was No where near where I should have been following Christ, I was lost lost lost. Still figuring out exactly what I thought I wanted in life and taking an extremley wrong path. I know God has compassion on His children and loves us no matter what, and I'm not sayign I'm not thankful, I just wonder why me? I'm so glad He did and has put a whole new direction and love and spirit in me to be back to the path I was on 5 years ago and then help the growth. I feel as if I have grown so so much in the past 8 months and am so happy and joyful and blessed!

Just a couple of ponderings ;)

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

KIDS CAMP!!

So, this past weekend I had probably the most fun I have had in a while. Our church puts on what's called kids camp once a year for fri-mon and kids ages 6-13. It was so much fun to watch the kids learn about God. What really got me is watching these kids listen so quietly and intently to the videos they were showing. Kids are such sponges, just listening and learning and taking it all in. They are so much fun! And extremely EXHAUSTING!!!! But, all in all we had a blast. My handsome S was a counselor/nurse and it was fun watching him be interactive with the kids too. He will be such a good dad someday! ;). There were also a few incidents with injuries and nurse S was right there to help. All in All great weekend :).

Even cleaning the bathrooms was fun! haha
oh and watching S get pelted with green chalk balls was highly entertaining as well. :)

Thursday, August 5, 2010

One Heck of a week

It's been one of those weeks... I think it's a number of things.. ONe because it's week after vacation, two because I STILL have my cough from 3 weeks ago(and yes I'm too stubborn and poor to go to a doctor), and three because I'm a girl and once a month us girls just..(need I say more?).

So I have been exhausted going home every night, S and I are watching this which has been freaking hilarious and kept me fairly upbeat, but I'm just plain freaking tired.

I need a nap what about in this beayootiful home. Yes? I think so.

Off I am for the weekend (well tomorrow after ANOTHER LONG DAY OF WORK) to this place.
Talk about an exhausting sounding weekend after a long week. Me and S are helping out with a camp for kids through our church. S is a counselor and I'm a helper, hopfully I'll have strength and a good attitude. Both, I'm currently struggling with.