ENGAGED :)

YUP it's true... Oct. 14,2010 S proposed to me :). I couldn't be happier!!! I'm so excited to become my best friend's wife and to live happily ever after with him. He is truly an amazing man of God, and I couldn't ask for a better man for me. I'm so excited I barely got sleep last night. So I'm off to bed.. but I had to put it on my blog, IM SO EXCITED!!!

We're hoping for May 21,2011... So I have like 218 days to go! :S

Hats :)

So i've been making hats.. and i LOVE it :) :)... its soo mcuh fun to do!! S's neighbor F taught me how, and she is such a great teacher.. here's 2 of the ones I've so far made, im currently working on one for S now :). Hope he likes it!!!

24's a good number :)

My list of what I would like to accomplish as a 24 year old..



*Shrink an inch

*Lose 20 pounds

*Move out of my dad's place

*Pay off ALL debt

*Get E'ed

*Get my MRS degree ;)

*GO TO FREAKING HAWAII ( this one I WILL accomplish)

*Plan the best fajita!

*Have my foot size shrink a few inches

*Do something drastic to my hair

*Go to Fairbanks

*Eat at Double Musky

*Go to Indiana(happening in ONE month )

*Have the best 1st Christmas with Scott :)

*See my best friend miss seven sleeps herself again :)

*Go on a steakmoon(NDA i figure you make steak fajitas so a steakmoon is what happens with fajitas right?!?)

*Cook more and more

*make lots of hats!!!

Almost 24

I will be 24 in 5 days, and I feel as if this past year of being 23 has dramatically changed my life. So, i think I'll reminse about my 23rd year of life.
Last year at this time I was confused, and heartbroken and totally not even close to walking with God. I was depressed, and poor and frustrated with life. I had two roomates, one that I got along with really well and that was the extent of my fun. However, I wasn't happy there's definetley a big difference between having fun and being happy. I made a lot of sinful mistakes last fall, and I'm just so blessed and thankful that God is a forgiving God. When I look back now, I realize that if I hadn't gone through that I may have not been so anxious to reconsile to God and get my life back. I know that what I went through last fall wasn't what God wanted for me, and looking back not what I wanted for myself, but it's what caused me to break completley to bring me back to the throne of God and His grace. :) SO cool He is! I ended up hurting my roomates and breaking a lease that they weren't happy about, and losing a good friendship, but Jan. I got re baptised, turned my life over to God, and not even two weeks later met the love of my life S! It's amazing what God can do when you turn your heart back to Him. These past 7 months have been the craziest, and best months of my life. We have our frustrations, like when the ice cream in the freezer melts and I think it should be thrown away, but S wants to try and re freeze it :). Or when noodles fall in the sink and I refuse to eat them :) haha. But seriously, I have grown SO SO much and S and I have grown so much together, and we couldn't have done it without the grace of our Lord. As I look back to last year, and how much I was hurting, but struggled to hold on to that hurt because it was comfortable, I see now that when I let go and let God, all things are possible. I challenge whoever reads these- if your comfortable in a situation, but you know it's not right, then be bold step out of that comfort zone and make a choice to let go and let God. I promise you'll end up better in the end. He can do great things.
In the next few days I'll write my list of what I want to do in my 24th year. :) it's good so stay tuned!

Apartment :)

S found an apartment YAY!!! it's in Peters Creek and right next door to some very good friends of ours. :) it's a one bed. one bath and def. older apartment, but he likes it and so do I. We started moving in stuff last night, and let me tell you S has a lot of crap, but we got a good load over to the apartment and he will move all the big stuff today. I'm excited that we will have our own place to hangout at, and he has his own place to call home. Maybe someday it will get to be my home too! ;) Also, S started actualy work in the NICU this past weekend, and let me tell you 12 hours without him is NO FUN! Sat and Sun he had to work, but I managed to stay busy shopping,lunch with my mom, and scrapbooking. I got three pages done in my scrapbook and I found a lot of ideas too for new pages, so I'm excited to continue working on it on the days he works. My birthday is in three weeks and yay I'm excited! I don't have any big plans as of yet, but I know S will spoil me, and we will def. be going out to dinner, and his dad is going to bbq me whatever I want for dinner too! :) S likes his job so far and I'm very thankful that he likes what he does, and he gets paid so well to do it. I'm wishing I could start my dream job, but I think God has different plans for now ;). My dream job has some things that come before it, but it will happen eventually, I have NO doubt about that. :) Im excited for a weekend off with S in his new place, and then next week for my very best friend to visit me! YAY!!!!

I'm still alive :)

Sorry it's been so long since I've written, though I'm pretty sure I'm just saying sorry to myself because I don't think anyone but me reads these. S got the NICU nursing job and I couldn't be a prouder girlfriend. So, because he got a job we have been looking for apartments for him. It is such a difficult thing looking at apartments in AK. If only he didn't have a budget, and we had more options. There just isn't a lot in his price range. I know that God will provide though, it will just take patience, somethign I'm not great at :). If only there were endless options like I'm sure there are in LA, or NY, or Boston or Florida or something. I do love craigslist and the apartments there. Like this one in Boston. Stainless steel, gorgeous hardwood floors. Love it! Check out this bathroom in NY city. :) wow... if only I had a million dollars and didn't know what to do with it... so fun looking at expensive places and pretending your rich.
I promise I won't neglect you so much blogspot anymore. Afterall it is September my favorite month, things are BOUND to happen to write about :).

Ponderings

I like that word pondering. It makes me feel like I'm really thinking hard, and using my big ole head for something. :) I have been pondering a few things lately and would love imput, or not whatever.
~Why is it that I feel so useless lately? Not like useles at my job, not useless as a person I can still do things, but lately I've felt useless as a Christian, like I should be doing more. Going to a bible study, teaching children's church, something to feel more use full :). I go to church(which I love my new church by the way) and I usually get something out of the sermon's and or worship and S and I read every night a chapter(we are reading through the Bible in a year), but I'm just feeling like there's got to be more I can be doing. Exspecially after this past weekened helping out at kids camp, I have forgotten how much i LOVE working with kids, and miss it. TERRIBLY! I miss seeing the kids faces glow, and light up, and grow and search for answers. I miss being a part of a study where I get to discuss and grow myself. S and I are reading through the 5 love languages, and that's been really good and I have learned a lot through that. Hopefully,maybe I can continue that growth somehow, someway.

~Also, why do I feel so happy lately? Yeah I might be feelign useless, but I'm loving everything in my life. Okay, so the question isn't why am I so happy I know the answer to that one, it's obvious that God has extremely blessed me this year and exspecially the past 6 months ;) <3, but why did God decide to bless me? Why me? Last year I was No where near where I should have been following Christ, I was lost lost lost. Still figuring out exactly what I thought I wanted in life and taking an extremley wrong path. I know God has compassion on His children and loves us no matter what, and I'm not sayign I'm not thankful, I just wonder why me? I'm so glad He did and has put a whole new direction and love and spirit in me to be back to the path I was on 5 years ago and then help the growth. I feel as if I have grown so so much in the past 8 months and am so happy and joyful and blessed!

Just a couple of ponderings ;)